i’d totally forgotten about this thing. and when i woke up remembering this morning it took a while to log in, i couldn’t remember emails or passwords, and went round in circles for a while trying.

it’s been more than a while since last i wrote on here. and i guess now i want to use it in a different way.  most of the summer was taken up with writing. and then i got accepted onto an MA starting next year. i don’t know exactly what happened, but everything that was there to write about, all the ideas i’d had, all of the flow, it just stopped. it felt pretty pointless to write, i’m still not sure why, but i struggled for a few weeks to find any kind of motivation, i felt a bit flat. but then the past month or so it’s slowly been coming back and on saturday words tripped easily. i wrote maybe 6 pieces that are all workable and it felt good. it felt like me again.

i want to use this differently. it seems crazy to read stuff from over a year ago. then there was so much to work out. now not so much. it’s freeing and good tho, to have that headspace, means i can think and write and imagine and not to be tied to a past. i want to use this for ideas and thoughts, inspiration and maybe to post some stories up to. just kind of like a scrapbook, but without the smell of glue.